Still Aching

It is to the point that I applied for food stamps today.  Guess what I am eligible for wait for it $16 dollars a month.  Wow really worth the hassle.  I think I need to go back to work and forget the disability thing.  Just live through the pain.  I don't know.  I want someone to give me feed back but have no one to bounce ideas off of.  How do you find an off the books job to supplement Aaaagggggg this is just me thinking aloud.  I want to be grateful for things.  I need to be grateful and happy.  

Money money money

Why oh why does a stupid thing like money have to get in the way of a simple necessity of life.  We just want to move into a decent low income apartment.  We even got approved with the nastiness on the credit.  I promised myself to let go of the past but,,, and being approved helps but being in this situation aaaaaggggghhhhhhhhh.  Disability pays well not much.  Got myself into this huge hole.  I am a believer in manifesting and the universe and the power of the positive thought so hey baby do your stuff.  It is just a deposit you can do that can't ya.  I would be your best friend.  I am your best friend. I know there is a way.  Something will come through.  There are possibilities out there.  My ex could pay me the money he owes me....or the sky could fall and I could save the day.  Okay there must be another way but they would not have approved almost and impossible feat if it wasn't meant to be. I am just putting it out there again.  I hate to be impatient but we kind of need the answer soon.  Pleeeeaaase!! Oh then is wouldn't hurt if I figured out some money making issues too.  Like what I can do as a partially disabled person to make an income.  I trust in you God all encompassing the Universe and Energy please move mountains.for undeserving me.