Still Aching

It is to the point that I applied for food stamps today.  Guess what I am eligible for wait for it $16 dollars a month.  Wow really worth the hassle.  I think I need to go back to work and forget the disability thing.  Just live through the pain.  I don't know.  I want someone to give me feed back but have no one to bounce ideas off of.  How do you find an off the books job to supplement Aaaagggggg this is just me thinking aloud.  I want to be grateful for things.  I need to be grateful and happy.